I've not done much being 18 as of yet, I've not had the chance to draw much and my my sleep patterns are proper fucked since leaving school, I'm bored so I'm going to write some random nonsense. Like always. I'm still not sure how many people read this out of interest. But I'll carry on, because why not? It kills time.

So, For many months, i have been trying to get back into Ragnarok for a range of reason, feeling a bit nostalgic, being part of Guardians of Ragnarok in which I've done bugger all basicly community wise apart from submitting my Love and Chaos pages, And just plain bored, I've had nothing to really do, And also, since Mabinogi hasn't had a update in Christ knows how long. And i've done pretty much everything leading up to the "Metagame", which I don't give a crap about. Ragnarok Online is... well, to me anyway. A very hard thing to get back into. Why would that be?

Choice. Too much Choice

There are so many servers now. (Looking at "Rate my Server", the website i use to check up on new servers and try to find one, aswell as check about item drops, monsters, maps, blah blah blah) So much choice. And... i don't know where to begin. Do i go with something easy with a few aids such as the Healer and Warpers and the Job Changer, or do i go a bit more exotic for a change and try a server that's not got them and attempts to become the original RO Experience, or i might wing it and try to Role Play, something i haven't done since my Gaia Online days (Thats something that ive not been going to in Years, i suppose i "Grew" out of it). This has been something i've not been sure about doing. I look at it as a Newbie who hasnt played RO. Because im trying to get a friend to try it with me. (No need to guess who.) Would my friend be able to cope with such things? Or will that learning curve be a bit too much? Or could it just be boring? I guess one of the main reasons why i played Mabinogi for so long was because the Combat was fun.

Its not just spamming F1 repeatedly till monster dies. It was more interesting where you couldn't exactly spam said skill to win. And that was something i loved from Mabi. The Learning Curve was something. But we got over it, and those Goblin Archers that always fucked our shit up when we where newbies cant do it as much... once in a blue moon if I wasn't paying attention. The Combat was rewarding, And i loved it.

The thing with RO is, I'm feeling Nostalgic. This was the first MMO i really got into, Back in Age of Chaos, which someone advertised back in Gaia Online (I think thought that was a Naughty thing to do, You couldn't and still cant talk about Private Servers). After the Typical Runescape that was big in my Primary school and Conquer Online, which hasn't changed much since i first played, I think anyway. Looking at the website now i can see there are Ninja's and Monks. Monks are fine, but Ninja's? I thought we where in China here. (Looking at the Avatar Pictures that look like characters from Dynasty Warriors/Romance of the Three Kingdoms.)

Anyway, back to RO. There was stuff i just loved about RO. The Graphics, the Music. Being a Rogue and hide/backstab spam anything that moved. The Community i was in. Just stuff like that. But, i cant seem to find a server that im interested in, looking at all these servers in Ratemyserver.org, This "Renewal" thing that RO has been going though for the past 2 or so years is something i'm not too sure about. Sprite wise, since i'm still doing Love and Chaos, This is great as i get more sprites to play about with such as mounts for all classes. But game play wise. If they bugger this up and lose the original charm of RO then it will just become another MMO.

There has been a few things keeping me back from getting back into RO. Wings being one of them. I cant stand them to be honest. Something about the balance of them and they just look plain ugly to me. Another just being the Community. I cant seem to find a balance between too little people and too many people. Quietness bugs me. And so dues Busyness. Which would lead to lag and stuff. I also notice that a huge population of players in said server are AFK being merchants. Which pisses me right off. Again, i don't know why. The main town happend's to be a custom made thing that looks like a mish mash of stuff, stuff and more stuff just... doesn't feel right.

Another thing that bugs me is that i cant have my hair i normally have on "Windy". Have a look at my Avatar. Somehow, i cant get that hairstyle with that colour when i start off. I might be seen as being nit picky but seriously. I like my main character being "Me". That character has grown on me.

( Out of topic wise, At least it isn't something absolutely retarded that i cant stand but rant about while playing. The recent S4 league patch has done a complete overhaul of the lobby and stuffs. Now getting rid of the lobby system where you could move about in the lobby, and jump on other players heads to make a tower was a bad idea because that was one of the nice things that made S4 League. Changing the menu's to a messy cluster fuck is also something dumb. But who's bright idea was to use FUCKING COMIC SANS as the font in game? Bloody idiot. Whoever that was. He needs to get slapped. If it ain't broke. Don't fix it. And there was nothing wrong about the Lobby system, the menu's and the font was fine. Why fix it? Bloody Alaplaya have been killing S4 League since Patch 7. The idiots... I had to unstall that after about 15 minutes. )

I need something to grip me into playing. But i cant seem to find that. AeonRO kinda tickles me out of curiosity but thats a RP server. And i don't know if i could be arsed with the whole "Roleplay" thing. There are other servers which are low rate and i'm not sure if i want to try them. Trying to download them when they are stationed in North America can be a pain due to slooooooooooooooow download speeds.  Just so many reasons why i cant seem to get back into Ragnarok Online. I guess having friends helps.

Anyway. That's my rant done for tonight. Catch you all later. :3